This New Year has felt particularly significant for me. It’s simply one day turning into the next, from yesterday to today, yet it feels so weighty – like there’s a great significance. The new year brings an opportunity to reflect on the year that’s been and choose what to carry into the new year. I can choose to leave the heavy luggage of 2019 behind and enter 2020 with a lighter load…
As a Christian, Jesus invites me to do this every day. He tells me that today’s troubles are enough for today (Matthew 6:34) – I don’t need to carry the concerns of yesterday or tomorrow. And He even offers to carry me through the troubles and challenges that each day brings.
He invites me to carry a lighter load, to walk with Him and allow Him to share the burden. In Matthew 11:28-30 He says, “Come to me, all who labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.” We are not meant to carry heavy loads, yet so often we do, because it’s hard to let go and give up control…
2019 has been filled with ups and downs for me. I recently ended a year-long relationship. The decision to end the relationship is my ‘heavy luggage’. I needed time to process and make sense of that decision, and the consequences of it. But I must admit, recently I’ve grown weary of carrying that ‘heavy luggage’. I have analysed the relationship from start to finish, wondered where it went wrong, and even wondered why I didn’t realise it needed to end sooner than I did. While it’s been helpful to do this to some extent, I also know that’s not helpful to dwell on these things.
As I’ve been dealing with raw emotions and the disappointment that inevitably comes with a break-up, I’ve been really encouraged by a song called ‘Burn the Ships’ by For King and Country:
Burn the ships, cut the ties
Send a flare into the night
Say a prayer, turn the tide
Dry your tears and wave goodbye
Step into a new day
We can rise up from the dust and walk away
We can dance upon the heartache, yeah
So light a match, leave the past, burn the ships
And don’t you look back
I can choose each day to step into a new day, full of new mercy and grace (Lamentations 3:23). I can wipe the dust of yesterday off my feet and leave it there. As I do this day by day, the weight of burden becomes a little less and little bit more manageable.
As I step into 2020, I have chosen to leave the disappointment that I have been processing for the past few months behind. It’s good to look back, reflect and make sense of it, but the time has come for me to move on from it. Rather than sitting in the disappointment for many more months, I’m stepping into a new day, new mercy, new hope.
But this I call to mind,
and therefore I have hope:
The steadfast love of the LORD never ceases;
his mercies never come to an end;
they are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness.
“The LORD is my portion,” says my soul,
“therefore I will hope in him.”
~ Lamentations 3:21-24 ~